post # 26

Ok, now that I have some time to get in another post I will finish what I was saying earlier about getting some things off my chest.  Like I was saying before I fill so over whelmed with everything right now. I fill like there is this dark cloud over me right now and I’m just standing there waiting on it to rain. I have been feeling like this for the past few weeks I want it to just stop. I thought things were going ok I mean so for I am doing ok in all my classes. The house is not totally trashed yet and most of the chores are done.  I truly don’t get why I fill this way. I don’t know what is worse having the filling are not being able to stop it. I am usually good at controlling my filling as well as what is going on in my life. I am hoping that when I go deer hunting this weekend I get one and maybe that will take the rain cloud away. I have not seen one dear and I have been out at least five times so for. May be I crossed baths with a black cat or stepped under a latter. If anyone has any suggestion pleas help I am willing to do almost anything. Remember I said almost anything so no off the wall stuff. You know I think if I don’t get a dear by Saturday I will just get drunk. That should do the trick you think.

post # 25

Ok, I know that I am in trouble when I go to algebra because somehow I miss counted my post . I still have about five more to go and then I should be good, but I have to wait and see where she says I’m at on the comments. I tried to be angry about it, but I am truly not. I wanted to get something off my chest about all the, how should I say it, tasks that I have to do every day. I think that I starting to get tired of getting no sleep or down time. Do not think by any means that I will be quitting it is just that I need to vent to someone. My old man is getting sick of me always complaining about everything. My son told me that he misses not being able to play games with me anymore. Then I asked him what he meant, because I know that I have been spending time with him. I just took him to the corn field and trick or treating. Then he said that it was not the time that he was talking about, he just meant us not playing games. That made me fill better about the whole thing because being a mother has to come first. Well I have so much more that I want to say, but it will have to wait till the next post. It did feel good to at least start getting things of my chest. Have a good day all.

post # 24

 pumpkin 2 of 2

I got the paint and decided it would be best to wait till tonight when the kids asked to do them before I told them how we was doing them. We had just finished eating when of course my son was the first one to ask. I told them to let me get the dishes done and we would get started. As soon as I was done I got the pumpkins and paint out and told them all to sit down. I think my son was looking at me all crazy when he asked what we need the paint for. I told the kids that this year we were going to try something new that this year we were going to paint the pumpkins and see how that looked. At first I don’t think that they thought it would be as fun as cutting them open. I started with the youngest (Kinzie) first which in its self is funny because they are twins. I started by asking what kind of face she wanted then noise and eyes. I went down the row doing this and in about a half hour I was done. They were all excited to see them and I think even without them glowing they would have loved them. Now that the pumpkins were done it was time to make the cookies. When the cookies got done we all set down and got ready to see what the pumpkins looked like in the dark. I could not believe how they glowed the kids went nuts they loved it. It was at that moment, (like I said at the beginning of this) that I realized that I would never have to carve pumpkins again. I told you that I realized a couple of things the whole not having to crave pumpkins is one and the other is that chocolate chip cookies can make anything better.

post #23

Hello, everyone I know that I have already posted today so, I will not be able to put this up tell later. I just wanted to tell everyone some things that I realized about a half hour ago. Let me start out with I will never have to carve another pumpkin again! I was kind of running late on things because my car brok down and it took me all day to find the part. Any ways, I forgot to get the kids their pumpkins so, when my son asked me about them in front of the girls, let me just say I was screwed. I told them it was too late to get pumpkins to carve and you should have seen the look on those kids faces. We were on our way to the Wal-Mart store on Allentown road when I broke my kid’s heart. Then God decided to save me and puts pumpkins right at the front entrance way of the store. Of course the kids start and the old man was forced to put three in the cart. All I could think of is the fact that I would be up forever tonight doing pumpkins. We were going over to the furniture department when a heavenly light shined down on the arts and craft section. There it was, glow in the dark paint, I knew this was the answer. Now all I have to do is convince the kids that this will be so mush cooler. My life is in their hand and I could feel my heart bet faster. What will their answer be and will it perhaps be a break for me? 

                I will post the rest of this on another day.

post # 22

It is Monday and I get to pick up my TV from the shop. I was scared that it would not be fixable because I don’t have the money to buy a new one. It is still early in the morning and I’m sitting here at school in the dark. I am not for sure how many post t I have done right now I think when I get this done I will go do a count. Maybe if I get lucky the computer fairy will do some post and some comments for me. If she does I’ll send her over to all of your guise way, simple thanks will be ok. YA, a computer fairy would be really nice if it was true but, of course it’s not. I have a hour before I have to be in class and I’m hoping to have this done. Then if I don’t’ get too much homework from class I can go home and chill out a bit. It seems like it takes forever to get to two hundred and fifty-five words don’t it. I run out of things to say after a while. This weekend went so fast that if I could turn back time I would. It was a busy weekend but, it was fun to watch the kids on Sunday. You know it never fails that they are so excited when we first get there then by the fourth house its carry me. Well I got enough words now so I’ll say good bye.

post # 21

Well this will be my post for Sunday and I will say it once again I will be so glad to get this stuff over with. I have made it my own personal goal and I will not stop till I reach that goal. Well it’s not like I have to much of a chose this shit counts as a grade. I think if I’m able to get this out of the way I will have more time for other homework, I hope. I would like to also throughout there that I have to take my first math class next semester. I don’t know why but that shit scares the hell out of me. I think that I will try to work on some math this summers as well as my scholarships that I want to apply for. I will be taking two digital circuit classes as well and if there anything like the one I’m in now, I’m in trouble. Oh well, I guess that I need to just enjoy the time that I get off then jump back in with both feet. The future is so onshore for me right now but I do know my direction. Well as my son puts it, straight ahead mom no looking back. Speaking of my son it was so funny the other day I was driving on the highway my son looks over at me and says gee mom you going fast enough. I looked down and I was going over eighty-five miles an hour. Thank God for him he saved me a ticket.