I can feel myself
getting tired of all this homework, it's kind of like the thrill of starting
college has faded away. I can see myself for the next two years playing this
game of get all the homework in just to pile on some more. I think yesterday
was just a bad day because I truly didn't feel so good. It seem so dishearten
when I study and I don’t seem to be getting things the way I want. There is
nothing I hate more than wasted time on anything. When I spend two days on one
subject and I'm no better off now than I was before, to me that is wasting
time. It makes me second guess myself about everything I'm doing. I even tried
to sit down and do my first rough draft and it felt like I just couldn't get my
head to work. I got up at 5a.m. yesterday and just like always not much sleep.
Maybe this is why I had trouble yesterday no sleep. I can only hope that today
goes better and I'm able to make some progress in a few things. It’s a little
after six so the day is just starting so tome will have to tell. This is so
hard sometimes I think that a part of me just wants to quit and the other part
is afraid to fail. I know this coffee better start working because I’m starting
to yawn a lot. I have a tone of questions to ask the professor today I just
hope she can make time for me again. I feel at time as if I bug the hell out of
her and my other professors. I don’t know what to tell them but I'm sorry. I
wish I could just cruse along her and get all the good grades without all the
hard work but, I've never been the lucky one. Please god give me the strength I
need to make it through this. I can feel myself starting to cry as I'm writing
all that I can think about is how my house is nothing like it used to be
and my school work is nothing like it should be. All I can do is Second
guess myself, did I picked the wrong course, am I in over my head, and am I
smart enough to do this.
I understand where you are coming from. Some weeks I just can’t wait till Friday so the stress from school goes away. Every once in a while I feel like I am put in a deep hole where I am expected to climb out of, and once I reach the top I feel like I fall in it again. I guess that is the college life, no pain no gain. I guess with all this stress from homework we will be more rounded people, and this will help us with our future careers. My advice to you is don’t let the stress of college get to you. Most of all don’t let it stop you from completing your goal in life. Remember the goal in life the prize of graduating college and getting an amazing career you would like to have. I know that is what I remind myself when I feel like I can’t do it anymore.
ReplyDeleteAlso remember teachers are here to help you! You also can’t forget the English, math, and science help you can get at the learning center. I have been there and it is great. I definitely will go back whenever I need help. Remember it is always better to get help in the beginning rather than later when you get far behind. I feel like we have the sources around us to succeed it’s just about when we choose to use them. Remember with determination you are bound to succeed, so best of luck with the homework. Remember you are not the only one who has the problems, I guarantee you most students feel the same way.